Hi!
I'm Michelle Amriel,
I'm so excited you're here
and I'd love to share my
journey with you!
...till my late thirties,
I struggled to discover my identity and what it meant to really love myself. I suffered from low self-esteem and a lack of self-confidence.
I used drugs, sex, and alcohol to help me cope and find the sense of belonging I was craving.
It was a way to feel part of something because I wasn’t aware of how to connect to my light, my heart, or my joy.
I used these things to cover up the pain I was feeling. I was fulfilling my needs through the eyes of others. The need to feel loved, to feel soothed, to feel validated, to feel worthy, and to feel safe.
And…still, there I was feeling empty, lost, and unfulfilled.
In my late 30’s, I met the man of dreams. It seriously felt like a fairy tale. I thought this was going to be the man who would love me and keep me safe forever. We decided to expand our family, then Chase was born. Surprisingly, I had a difficult birth.
Chase was born not breathing. As you can imagine, my whole world stopped. The doctors thought he was going to have brain damage. This is when I surrendered, dropped down into my heart, and began to pray daily.
It was a long and exhausting 2 years going to doctor appointments hoping our son would be able to live a normal life. He was released in the end.
I will always remember what the neurologist told me, he said, “When kids are born not breathing, they are normally vegetables and your son is a MIRACLE!”
When I was younger
This experience broke my heart open
I started to see my life through a whole new set of lenses. During this time, all of my energy was going to taking care of our son.
Meanwhile, our marriage was failing. I was a woman who went into my marriage thinking it would last forever.
During this emotional turmoil, we began our mediation for our divorce. I didn’t have time to process what I was feeling. I had to stuff it down and move on to deal with our divorce.
I found myself in a very dark place. As hard as it was, I sat in this dark and alone place. I felt like a failure I couldn’t keep our marriage together. I went into this dark place of shame and guilt of blaming myself.
I was completely terrified of the thought of becoming a single parent and raising a toddler on my own. From this place, a few things transpired. If I continued feeling this way, something bad was going to happen to me.
Then, where would my son be without a mother?
Or, I could choose to make the choice to deepen and go inward. When I realized there was no chance of reconciling, I started to become aware of what was really happening.
In other words, I got real and honest with myself about how I was playing a part in my life.
I finally had the courage to dive into some of the most painful parts of myself and give those parts my attention, love, and support.
I realized that I couldn't do this alone
...so I hired three coaches to guide me on my healing journey. I surrendered to the fact that I didn’t have all the answers and I wanted guidance.
I’ve been on this fast track ever since.
My greatest breakthrough occurred when I became aware of my patterns.
I became aware of all the lies we’re told growing up.
Suddenly realizing, I had a tremendous opportunity to begin honoring my heart and soul.
This shifted my entire perspective in life. I did a deep dive into my healing and got to know my heart on an intimate level. Through my deep inner and soul work, I transformed.
I broke the dysfunctional family patterns for generations to come which has changed the course of my son’s life and his children so that my son would experience a fuller, confident, and secure life.
I started to feel my inner power! I began to choose myself and step into strength I never knew I had.
This is when I became a Zen Mama!
When you recognize how I was created, then you have the power to create something different.
I started to connect to my strength from within and feel deeply rooted in my divine feminine. I began to see and feel my brilliance.
I realized I wasn’t broken and learned how to love myself deeply.
Loving everything that was arising, even my imperfections.
My purpose had revealed itself. I always thought your purpose was outside of you. Now, I know everything is inside. It’s always an inside job. Your pain and struggles are part of your purpose.
This is why I’m so passionate about teaching mamas how to become whole and confident, find their footing and strength, reclaim their inner peace and create an unshakable foundation they will have for life.
I’m deeply committed to guiding moms to have the courage to heal, to love and accept themselves fully.
The courage to break away from old patterns, that seem comfortable or normal, to evolve into a brighter version of yourself. The person you are at your core, your true essence.
It was fulfilling to experience and, at the same time, extremely challenging to become the woman I am today.
Even with all the challenges, I’m here to tell you, the work is so worth it.
I want you to know that you’re important enough to personally invest in yourself to create a life you love and recognize.
I don’t believe we can do this on our own.
These patterns and habits are hard to break. All of us need guidance and anything is possible with guidance and the willingness to evolve.
This is why I created a community to support mamas with forgetting about what the world wants us to be and reclaiming our true essence and giving ourselves full permission to act on it.
I don’t do the work just for myself. I do it for others- my mom, my dad, and my ancestors. These wounds go way back from generation to generation. So, when you make a choice to heal, you are healing generational patterns that go way back into your ancestry.
It would be my deepest honor to support you on your journey.
With Enormous Love,
